Wednesday, November 7, 2007

I aint got no crystal ball

The 90’s have been a lot on my mind lately. What a romantic period—a period of individualistic, self-consuming, imaginative poets and prophets. A revolution of generation Xers too depressed to walk outside their doors and pick up the paper and scan the news headlines about people whose lives veered even more tragic. These middle children of history had only the voices in their heads to keep them company. They were the bringers of rain—the lithium dazed but emotive storytellers and songwriters of our time. And their songs sliced our hearts with splintering lyrics and choking throats. They were destined to die young and alone, like predecessors Poe, Shelley and Keats. And like Blake they refused to become enslaved by societal standards (instead enslaving themselves). Years from now, when our grandchildren ask about the music of the “old days,” we will (in proper cliché) wonder what they must be learning in school if not the classics. Perhaps the teachers have forgotten our romantic heritage, abandoning their dusty albums next to dusty books of poetry.

Not me.

I still remember the metaphors. The vampire worlds, the bulls on parade, the cancer turning black. I recall the smell of teen spirit and the effects of glycerine. I’ve seen champagne supernovas and people drawing blood under the bridge. I’ve walked through a forest of fake plastic trees.

4 comments:

jes said...

the only thing i remember from the 90s was "all that she wants... is another baby... she's gone tomorrow..."

Jordan said...

I wanna be a lion, everybody wanna pass as cats... we all wanna be big, big, big, big stars yeah but we got different reasons for that.

Am said...

believe in me, cuz i don't believe in anything, and i wanna be someone who believes...

Bryan and Whitney said...

Lately, I am more concerned with whether or not I will have grandkids around to ask me those questions. After reading the road, I wonder if the time will come that i will have to literally rally around my family with a pocket full of shells. I think the genX prophets of the nineties are more like Yeats than Keats. I think they saw the beast slouching towards bethlehem. I think they saw things fall apart, and like a rat in cage, they couldnt do anything about it. Why else would they want to be raped? Why else would they teach us to settle? If there really are no better men, if jesus really doesnt want me for a sunbeam, then why should I care, why should i not come down from my cloud and wallow in the shadows of my black holed sun. Blake said that if the doors of perception were open and men they would see things as they really are: infinite. the genX prophets doors were open, they saw the infinite bleakness and embraced it.